...quitter

Long time since my last post...

The last two weeks have been quite significant in my life. I have made a big decision that leaves me in a very unsure place. I quit uni.


For those that don't know, i have been doing a Masters of Teaching (Secondary Music) at Sydney Uni for the last 6 months. I haven't really enjoyed it a huge amount and if you spoke to me you would probably have heard me whinging about it. Increasingly this semester as prac loomed i felt more and more like i didn't want to be doing what i was doing. Then last week i found out i failed an assignment last semester and that meant i failed the whole subject. So i was going to have to fight to stay in my course anyway. So...i jumped ship.

I really don't know where i am heading now. Don't have any strong desires for this job or that career. I want to do something musical, but that could easily be a hobby type thing as well. I need to pay the bills somehow, so finding a job is a large priority at the moment.

Was speaking to a wise, older friend last night, who said he was in a similar place at my age. He said he wanted an answer on a piece of paper to where life was leading for him. An older friend of his (this is getting complicated to follow) told him that if you got this piece of paper, you wouldn't trust God as you wouldn't need to. So now i am challenging myself to not want an all encompassing answer, but to rely on God. A real challenge when there seems to be no real security in anything in the world.